Sorry but I’m going to chime in here. I don’t want to see you leave, for whatever that’s worth.
Hopefully I’m not tarnishing this thread:
If I was one of the two you were referring to, let me be clear I ‘outed’ you because you were posting long, aggressive, excessively manic posts in the CR…some with no clear point at all. Often that’s troll behavior, combined with new account + low posts = worried you’d get neg bombed. I wanted to point out you were going through serious shit so people wouldn’t pile on.
I’ve had my own struggles with alcohol, and only by the grace of god and my own awareness of my weaknesses will I avoid going back. I damaged my marriage at one point, needed therapy and probably bothered the fuck out of Twice with PMs. Pretty sure I’m not an alcoholic and managed to find a calm comfortable peace without AA, but I still have sympathy like mad for you.
Don’t let imaginary drama on a message board of assholes fuck with your recovery one bit. Your posting style in CR mimicked what got Schlong to opine you weren’t out the other side yet, and Rage to say ‘micro problems’…maybe deeply consider those two thoughts, focus on your recovery and let everything else go down a peg. Your posting history later today seemed to reflect you making progress there, don’t jump back now.
Anyways please pardon my off topic rant here. I haven’t completely quit drinking but some kind of lightbulb went off for me early this year, and my life has become much more manageable through sheer focus on only what really matters…alcohol and what non-family thinks of me don’t occupy my mind at all.
Hope you can get well.