Sorry but Iām going to chime in here. I donāt want to see you leave, for whatever thatās worth.
Hopefully Iām not tarnishing this thread:
If I was one of the two you were referring to, let me be clear I āoutedā you because you were posting long, aggressive, excessively manic posts in the CRā¦some with no clear point at all. Often thatās troll behavior, combined with new account + low posts = worried youād get neg bombed. I wanted to point out you were going through serious shit so people wouldnāt pile on.
Iāve had my own struggles with alcohol, and only by the grace of god and my own awareness of my weaknesses will I avoid going back. I damaged my marriage at one point, needed therapy and probably bothered the fuck out of Twice with PMs. Pretty sure Iām not an alcoholic and managed to find a calm comfortable peace without AA, but I still have sympathy like mad for you.
Donāt let imaginary drama on a message board of assholes fuck with your recovery one bit. Your posting style in CR mimicked what got Schlong to opine you werenāt out the other side yet, and Rage to say āmicro problemsāā¦maybe deeply consider those two thoughts, focus on your recovery and let everything else go down a peg. Your posting history later today seemed to reflect you making progress there, donāt jump back now.
Anyways please pardon my off topic rant here. I havenāt completely quit drinking but some kind of lightbulb went off for me early this year, and my life has become much more manageable through sheer focus on only what really mattersā¦alcohol and what non-family thinks of me donāt occupy my mind at all.
Hope you can get well.