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7 months ago today I was sitting in a "detox" against my will with a bunch of certifiable crazies. I was momentarily certifiable myself, it was ugly, I just didn't have the scars on my wrists to prove it. Alcohol is a cunning, baffling, and powerful motherfucker to say the least. I didn't get sober when I got out, but it was certainly almost bottom. I had to get myself fired a month later to finally give it up. You don't have to go through the hell I did to get out of it. I'm just strong willed and had to completely burn it all down. This wasn't my first rodeo. I knew that my drinking days were coming to an end. Thank God I made it out alive without doing and serious harm to others. I know holidays can be hard for the lonely, depressed, and hopeless. When I was at the end of my drinking I didn't get a lot of invites to do things and I was alone. I had plenty of friends and was fun to be around, until I wasn't. My thoughts were dark, life sucked and I isolated. If you're out there and reading this, it can and will get better if you do something different. The only thing scarier than making a change in my life was living with alone with my thoughts and the possibility of harming someone else. There is a different way to live and life gets better no matter how crazy that sounds. You're loved and there are a lot of people out there who've done what you have, some of us worse. Keep the faith, take some action to change when the thought occurs, and don't let that evil motherfucker win.

Time to workout the escape and asylum arrangements.

The NRA angle of this is finally getting some mainstream media attention. The idea that the NRA was some kind of unwitting idiot who just happened to take Russian contributions is preposterous. These fuckers have been running one of the most sophisticated campaigns in all of dark money politics for years. They know exactly where their money comes from. Burn in hell fuckers. Ollie North as their current chairman is the cherry on top of the melting sundae of treason and shame. https://www.mcclatchydc.com/news/politics-government/article214075459.html The NRA, which spent $30 million-plus backing Trump’s bid, has heard nothing from the FBI or any other law enforcement agency, spokesman Andrew Arulanandam reiterated in an email the other day. Legal experts, though, say there’s an easy explanation for that. They say it would be routine for Justice Department Special Counsel Robert Mueller’s investigators, who are looking at the NRA’s funding as part of a broader inquiry into Russian meddling in the 2016 U.S. elections, to secretly gain access to the NRA’s tax returns from the Internal Revenue Service. On the returns, the group was required to identify its so-called “dark money” donors -- companies and wealthy individuals who financed $21 million of the group’s publicly disclosed pro-Trump spending, as well as its multimillion-dollar efforts to heighten voter turnout. The NRA’s nonprofit status allows it to shield those donors’ names from the public, but not the IRS.

Cheers all. He went off the reservation quite a while ago and we'll probably never know why it happened, but damn it must sting for a guy like that to wake up everyday knowing you're a traitor. I hope he's doing his best to make amends to his country and soul during this investigation because he has to look himself in the mirror the rest of his life. Knowing that Mueller is still grinding on and using him helps calm my brain from the daily Trump fatigue. Add that to the fact the Manafort trial begins in a month and we are getting closer to knowing the fate of the nation. I have to believe the "treasoncunts" will get theirs soon. Need Flynn to nail Prince and I will be happy. Edit* Didn't know Flynn was that part of the team. Cambridge, Stone, etc.

Is that because he is still cooperating or because more charges are possible? I'm assuming the former, but have no clue.

Since the Russian attack is fake, can't she just expect a pardon? If her folks have half a brain they get their asses over to Fox and Friends everyday while this assclown is still President.

The nice thing in OK is there was no big campaign promising to fix all the financial ills of the state. It really was grassroots vs. big money. More of a fuck you to the establishment than the next thing to save education. Folks got burned here on the lottery years ago. No one is buying that there is a single fix to the revenue problem.

The Chamber of Commerce and O&G folks didn't do themselves any favors supporting that crap. Their holy glow of supreme rule was already tarnished during the teachers strike, this just proves how out of touch they are. It was an embarrassing campaign to scare the old's and gullible's that wasted a lot of money. Makes my heart happy when they spend a bunch and lose.

Yes they are. The failure of the last 8 years of tax cuts and oil & gas giveaways have finally taken hold here. Not sure where this will end up, but they might get a D for Gov. The legislature won't flip D, but there will more of them elected, and certainly be more moderate R's elected. Sucks to be an R incumbent.

http://www.tulsaworld.com/news/elections/medical-marijuana-passes-see-how-each-oklahoma-county-voted-on/article_f00d2998-6206-5698-8b3a-c8b30820b063.html "Oklahoma voters on Tuesday appear to have made it legal to use, sell and grow marijuana for medicinal purposes in a referendum two years in the making. About 57 percent of voters approved the measure. State Question 788 would take effect in just 30 days, so lawmakers are expected to scramble back to the Capitol to tackle the host of regulatory issues raised by the creation of an all-new licensing program and marijuana processing industry." It will be interesting to see how the legislature handles the regulation. Problem for the incumbents up for re-election is that it passed by almost 14pts and they can't fuck around before the general or they'll get attacked. There is a "change" vibe going on in Oklahoma due to the teachers strike, revenue failures, and all around ineptitude of the entrenched Christian Conservatives and Tea Party hardcores. The Lt. Gov., Trump endorsed (Tump Jr. campaigned for him) candidate for Governor lost in the primary last night, making him the first Lt. Gov. in history to not get the party nomination. He lost to the moderate mayor from OKC, and a rich mortgage banker outsider (reminds me of Trump). Blows my mind that OK legalized pot before Texas. Never thought I'd see the day.

There's a gentleman in my home group who's been sober since '73. A massive stroke some years ago left him with serious speech problems and the right side of his body is fucked, barely gets around on a cane. It's damn inspiring to see a guy at every meeting that lives with that shit yet wants to keep his mind clear and spirit fit. My self pity is so overwhelming when I say the wrong thing at a social setting/work when I'm not working a good program. When I'm spiritually fit, I could shart myself at a wedding and not a fuck would be given for more than 5 minutes. 5 months today and I'm grateful as hell. Thank you to all of you guys out there working with others and saving lives. I'm one of the lucky ones that was shown a different way of life. Cheers to you and much love.

Is this delay in speaking to the special counsel only going to hurt Trump in the long run? The longer Trump waits, the more Mueller will have the pieces of the story together and will be more likely to perjure himself. They aren't learning that things were truly above board, they're learning more of the detail of the traitorous actions, financial crimes, and general corruption that Trump and Associates have committed over the last several years. At least by talking to him as soon as possible you can get a feel for where the investigation is headed. Certainly they're trying to find back channels to what the witnesses have already testified about, but with Manafort getting popped, I doubt folks are eager to reach out to the President. Trump is making it harder on himself. Yes, I realize it's just delaying the inevitable SC ruling when he defies the subpoena, but damn I'd being trying to get all the info I could first hand.

Driving grey fucking cars without lights on during a sunless grey morning downpour to make sure no one can see you flying down the middle lane. Dark cars in general driving without their lights on during said storms, but for some reason idiots who drive grey/silver cars never turn their lights on. Fuck you.

Ready for the "Lock them up!' chants at the next rally.

I know, and I'm just a backwoods hick from Oklahoma. He goes on and on about being a genius from Wharton and they love him, yet don't see the elitist slapping them in the face with his Cheeto. If he applied for a position with most of these "job creators" he'd be shown the door for being a loudmouthed Yankee, or not make it through the written resume portion for too many errors. The dissonance that the right amount hate, lack of fucks for anything other than lib/brown/Euro tears, and an R by your name brings these days is incredible.

It's almost as if the red line under his misspelled words actually mean, the best words. The fucker doesn't have the patience to check his very public thoughts. I know he doesn't care about norms of any kind, but the impulsiveness is fucking scary.

You'll know if we're fucked in a few short months. D's haven't been able to win with facts up to this point and I'm not sure if they can win in '18. It truly is up to the electorate now what road we take. Everything is out in the open for the last year for the rational folks to see. It's up to them to reject it or not. Elections have consequences. This next one is do or die.

Taint Fish Midnight Colonoscopy

"Just the coffee boy and folks that were on the campaign a very short time". Fucking hell, I can't wait for the trials to start and the evidence come out. Sure there will be the 46 percent that will never believe the facts, but the folks who aren't paying attention are going to have their collective minds blown when we start hearing Trump campaign officials fess up.

I'm sorry you had to see that. My brother saw me at my worst in a similar situation, but I was at least alive, physically. There comes a point when I was alone in my drinking that I just gave up hope. The physical addiction had me and life wasn't all I wanted it to be. I just kind of said "fuck it, what's the point in living?". I was living my own slow sucide because there was no hope. It was time for me to go on my own terms so why not drink. It's impossible to explain to those who've never been there, but it can happen for a number of different reasons. When I got behind in life (so I thought at 36) and then under the bottle it made perfect sense to me. Who knows if that was your brothers case, but know it happens to a lot of people. Some get away with it, some get better, and unfortunately some don't make it. It really is luck, timing, and money that determines the outcome. Prayers to you and your family.

Having lived in the EU for almost 5 years and running a small business and attempting to start others, I agree, it is harder to get rich. America is still the place to hopefully get rich starting a small business. I can only speak for myself, but the peace of mind (crime, healthcare, community, workers rights) that comes with day to day life in the EU blows away the anxieties of living and trying to hit it big in the US. We are a fantastic country to get rich and then run off and hide on a ranch or gated community, but the anxieties here are ridiculous. We are all one health scare away from poverty and no one gives a fuck. Money and investment is easier to find here, but happiness in daily life is off the charts over there. Even in 2008-2013 horrible economy Spain my life was better there except for the money. Being an American though, it is damn difficult to not have the belief that I deserve to hit it big and be successful. Then, ultimately say "Peace out bitches, going to travel and enjoy my ranch away from the daily shit. In the meantime, I grind for low wages trying to hit the big one while I worry about getting sick, the cost of the commute, and the toll its taking on my happiness. Just like every true blooded American should do.

"Welcome to the party pal!' I have accepted that there are two options going forward. He and his mafia cabal go to jail, or they get away with it and the Republic fails. I'm back to laughing again, but it is more out of self preservation than anything. I can do nothing as an individual to change what is happening, I have neither the money nor public platform to do anything of substance. If I take his shit seriously or I get angry it, only affects me. I'm enjoying the movie.

Prayers for your health and recovery. The fear will certainly be worse than anything you actually go through. You've got this.

Thank God we had the foresight to give huge tax breaks to the wealthy. The jobs created will fill that payroll gap in no time along with the fake deficit they say is created.

No, it wasn't just the dossier. There were so many sketchy acts by the candidate and the election staff going back years that I'm shocked more of them weren't under investigation prior to joining the campaign. The dossier just put a lot of the pieces together with foreign intelligence.