I'll try to explain my thoughts after having a day to digest.
First of all, her testimony was hard for me to watch. My mom and wife had been victims in their life. I'd rather not go into detail, but needless to say it has changed them, and in regard to my mom and watching her deal with it, it changed me. Ford's a brave lady to come forward and testify before the whole country, and it ended up not even being taken seriously. The worst was them basically feeling sorry for her, being taken advantage of by the democrats and it being the democrats fault that this wasn't taken seriously. And that they believed her, but they thought she had the wrong guy (Ed Wheelan theory, anyone?). They made her testimony a democrats vs republicans thing which I think was just utterly disrespectful to her.
Kavanaugh's opening statement also made me feel sad for him, her, America. You can tell me I don't have to feel sad for him, but I did. I guess I'm too emotionally vulnerable to follow this stuff seriously. When he broke up talking about his daughter praying for his accuser, it punched a nail through my heart. His subsequent testimony made it apparent that he was unfit for the court and likely not being fully forthcoming about the allegation. But it was gut-wrenching.
Quick story. When I was in college I was a file clerk at the felony district attorney's office as I thought I may want to pursue the law at some point. We were prosecuting a ~70+ man for having sex with his 15 year old great granddaughter. It was just a file/case until it wasn't. The family came in negotiate the plea. The whole family. The accused. The victim. The accused wife, his children, etc. There were about 8 people in total. I remember seeing their faces after they finished and left the room with our assistant DA, and they all looked so broken. Just broken down and shattered emotionally. Yesterday reminded me of that.