Been lurking and reading through this thread in an effort to re-program my thinking. 
 
	Turning 49 today, already had a big birthday blowout in Vegas, so my actual bday weekend is fairly mellow. Blessedly so.
 
	I feel like I’m on a downward slide. Last few hangovers have been brutal and really tired of feeling like shit. Got hammered on Friday for absolutely no reason.
 
	I don’t drink every day. I don’t crave it. But on the days I do drink, I just don’t stop.  And it’s been getting worse.  My tolerance is sky-high, and, by the time I’m feeling it, I’m completely hammered and out of control.  Worried about some form of escalation and some form of rock bottom.
 
	Reached out a friend with my intentions for some accountability.  Discussed with my wife (no pics) as well.  Obviously, both were very supportive. 
 
	I guess a little self-awareness is a good thing.  We’ll see how this goes.  
 
	My overall goal is to hit 50 a lot leaner and meaner than now.  I have a good life, but I guess middle-age is catching up a bit.  Time to change some habits.