as a family, we used to go to a church that we really liked. they did not preach hate, welcomed lgbtq community and were pretty much the polar opposite of the Jefress led downtown Baptist church in Dallas. we are still members, still donate a decent chunk of change to them every year, but we just don't go anymore. For me it's a complete lack of faith and really stems from shit i cannot wrap my head around.
- Can God be active in our lives. I'm talking about direct divine intervention. God nudging a semi truck to the left to avoid an oncoming car. More to the point, God choosing to intervene. I cannot reconcile God choosing NOT to intervene when children are raped. Either there are no miracles, no divine intervention, no 'God has planned out your entire life' and we are left to the laws of probability and human misery to deal with shit on our own OR the alternative is frankly sickening in that God helps some people in some situations but allows such horror to be visited on the innocent. Yes, i get that we were kicked out the Garden and now bad shit happens because man sucks, but doesn't the concept of 'sometimes' miracles seem horrifying?
So if there is no divine intervention we are left with God as the perfect clockmaker. Set the world in motion and then take a step back and let things play out. OK i guess we should be grateful and pay homage for being created, but the Bible directly contradicts that theory with tale after tale of God's vengeance, mercy, love and wrath. So back to square 1.