Charles DeMar

Exact same for my guy. True, he went for it applying for Plan II AND Computer Science, dinged all the way around. Will have 30+ credit hours and so UTSA or whatever doesn't work. Lots of "WTF, UT" being uttered by my wife (class of 98) but ... it's uber competitive. He is actually on campus right now appealing in person that his "top 1%" candidacy was perhaps not fully understood. Long shot, but if not, he'll be fine, although it will be in a different state since he was UT or bust for his in-state apps. Fun times.

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Right there with you, STF.

4 years sober 10 August. Thanks to all for sharing your experience, strength, and hope on this thread. (As a followpu on the whole job deal: out of 200 candidates, I was #2. Not the outcome I WANTED, and as I said to my sponsor "I think I was most upset that I didn't have the opportunity to say no to THEM!") I'll keep coming back. CDM

…and, of course, it all worked out when with the slight hiccup that threw me into a tizzy. Time delayed yesterday, second guy was able to meet, great conversations, got to Frisco for swim meet in plenty of time, etc. I’ve got lots of examples in my life where that has been the case, drunk and sober. I obviously often still not good all the time at pausing, giving my will over, remembering I’m not in control, and being faithful. I’ll keep coming back. Thanks to all for the experience, strength, hope, and advice. CDM

Man, I have got to vent and my sponsor is on the golf course. Just FYI, Aug 10, 2018 sobriety date, go to 3-5 meetings (almost all in person) a week and work with a great sponsor. A tie-in to "good job market" talk not going away, I was recently contacted by a recruiter for a position that aligns very nicely with my experience and preferences, would be a move back to Austin from Houston (pros and cons all around) and although not a likely 2.2x income increase, llikely a nice uptick. Although there are plenty of reasons to leave my current gig, there are many more reasons to stay, so I wasn't really looking. I have been battling my tendency to "what if" this thing, and remarkably have been pretty good about being at peace with "maybe works out, maybe doesn't, but God's got this either way." Well, I fell off that wagon and am all twisted off now. Lots of planning to get to Austin tonight for second round interview tomorrow and just heard they need to postpone. Felt badly having the "half truth" with my boss to get up there and take the day off tomorrow, set up a non-refundable but reimbursable hotel room, was taking the wife and kids as we then would go up to the Metroplex for weekend plans (Frisco), etc. My "directing of the play" is going as one would expect. Anyways, how quickly I can go from trusting my Higher Power to a fearful, seething mess. I'm still and alcoholic and without my daily repreive, I'd be an actively drinking alcoholic. Thanks for letting me vent. I need to give it back up to the One who truly is in control and get out of myself. Thanks for listening.

It's been a hellish week at work, and I too woke up "kind of cruddy" to the point that my alcoholic brain had to do a double take "did I DRINK last night?!" Thankfully, no, just tired because of legitimate reasons not those I used to create for myself through far too many tequilas. Mac, we must've crossed paths up in Breck by a day or two - day we left (early in the month) was 28 degrees that morning. Hard to beat.

"oh my hoodness"

Alcoholism is nothing more than self loathing. Well said, Bear. Glad to be here and in the physical and zoom rooms, too. By my Higher Power's grace, was able to celebrate 3 years last week. Thanks to all you guys on this board here and at ToS, all of whom I led myself to believe I was unlike. Thanks for being raw and honest and vulnerable. CdM

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My inlaws STILL do that. The old TV "cabinet" is sturdy and heavy af, so they're like "FUCK IT."

Ditto

Been hookin' 'em and hearting some older posts. Just haven't been here in a while and having one of those days, so greatly appreciate the "this too shall pass," and "have that second thought" comments in the last month. Appreciate all y'all, and happy to be sober today no matter my circumstances. CDM

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Did something with a similar tube as cousin eddie guy, but was at "stupid things wife says/does" insisting. Far less cool than the guy with the trailer and the outfit. Was a cluster, anyway. Kids shoving their hands in it all the time and likely infected one another 20x over. Not that I care or was worried about it, but wife, to her credit, said 'parents might appreciate it.' One kid said "hey, she got two!!!" I said "I gave everybody two. Did you actually watch how many went in your bag?!" "Oh, no." Felt like retiring for the evening at that point and the Larry David video summed it up for me.