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  1. On 2/2/2024 at 10:48 AM, Saint Tacky said:

    Good news. Bad news. Youngest was accepted to The University yesterday but received the "denial" option. That is to go to school at a "UT System University" for 30 credit hours, maintain a 3.2 GPA, and get guaranteed admission to Austin in Fall 2025.  Unfortunately, my kid already has so many dual credits from AP courses in high school, that there are not likely enough courses available for them to knock out the 30-hour requirement.

    Losing guaranteed admission for following a more academically challenging path in high school. What a country.

    Exact same for my guy.  True, he went for it applying for Plan II AND Computer Science, dinged all the way around. Will have 30+ credit hours and so UTSA or whatever doesn't work.  Lots of "WTF, UT" being uttered by my wife (class of 98) but ... it's uber competitive.

    He is actually on campus right now appealing in person that his "top 1%" candidacy was perhaps not fully understood.  Long shot, but if not, he'll be fine, although it will be in a different state since he was UT or bust for his in-state apps.

     

    Fun times.

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  2. 2 hours ago, Storm the Field said:

    Damnit. Was just talking with some buddies at work about this. We're always busy this week, usually due diligence for some client's end of year acquisition project that has a hard cutoff of 11:59 on 12/30 or so. Never get to do the "take off from Xmas Eve through January 3rd" that a lot of people get to enjoy.

    Right there with you, STF. 

  3. On 7/21/2022 at 3:00 PM, Charles DeMar said:

    Man, I have got to vent and my sponsor is on the golf course.  Just FYI, Aug 10, 2018 sobriety date, go to 3-5 meetings (almost all in person) a week and work with a great sponsor.

     

    A tie-in to "good job market" talk not going away, I was recently contacted by a recruiter for a position that aligns very nicely with my experience and preferences, would be a move back to Austin from Houston (pros and cons all around) and although not a likely 2.2x income increase, llikely a nice uptick.  Although there are plenty of reasons to leave my current gig, there are many more reasons to stay, so I wasn't really looking.  I have been battling my tendency to "what if" this thing, and remarkably have been pretty good about being at peace with "maybe works out, maybe doesn't, but God's got this either way."  

    Well, I fell off that wagon and am all twisted off now.  Lots of planning to get to Austin tonight for second round interview tomorrow and just heard they need to postpone.  Felt badly having the "half truth" with my boss to get up there and take the day off tomorrow, set up a non-refundable but reimbursable hotel room, was taking the wife and kids as we then would go up to the Metroplex for weekend plans (Frisco), etc. 

     

    My "directing of the play" is going as one would expect. 

     

    Anyways, how quickly I can go from trusting my Higher Power to a fearful, seething mess.   I'm still and alcoholic and without my daily repreive, I'd be an actively drinking alcoholic. 

     

    Thanks for letting me vent.  I need to give it back up to the One who truly is in control and get out of myself.  

     

    Thanks for listening.  

    …and, of course, it all worked out when with the slight hiccup that threw me into a tizzy.  Time delayed yesterday, second guy was able to meet, great conversations, got to Frisco for swim meet in plenty of time, etc.

     

    I’ve got lots of examples in my life where that has been the case, drunk and sober.  I obviously often still not good all the time at pausing, giving my will over, remembering I’m not in control, and being faithful.  I’ll keep coming back.

     

    Thanks  to all for the experience, strength, hope, and advice.

     

    CDM

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  4. Man, I have got to vent and my sponsor is on the golf course.  Just FYI, Aug 10, 2018 sobriety date, go to 3-5 meetings (almost all in person) a week and work with a great sponsor.

     

    A tie-in to "good job market" talk not going away, I was recently contacted by a recruiter for a position that aligns very nicely with my experience and preferences, would be a move back to Austin from Houston (pros and cons all around) and although not a likely 2.2x income increase, llikely a nice uptick.  Although there are plenty of reasons to leave my current gig, there are many more reasons to stay, so I wasn't really looking.  I have been battling my tendency to "what if" this thing, and remarkably have been pretty good about being at peace with "maybe works out, maybe doesn't, but God's got this either way."  

    Well, I fell off that wagon and am all twisted off now.  Lots of planning to get to Austin tonight for second round interview tomorrow and just heard they need to postpone.  Felt badly having the "half truth" with my boss to get up there and take the day off tomorrow, set up a non-refundable but reimbursable hotel room, was taking the wife and kids as we then would go up to the Metroplex for weekend plans (Frisco), etc. 

     

    My "directing of the play" is going as one would expect. 

     

    Anyways, how quickly I can go from trusting my Higher Power to a fearful, seething mess.   I'm still and alcoholic and without my daily repreive, I'd be an actively drinking alcoholic. 

     

    Thanks for letting me vent.  I need to give it back up to the One who truly is in control and get out of myself.  

     

    Thanks for listening.  

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  5. On 6/30/2022 at 10:51 AM, Macanudo said:

    I stayed up WAY too late last night and when I woke up, there was that sort of "why do I feel kind of cruddy" feeling.  And I remembered how awesome it is to not wake up like that all too often like in the past.   

    It's been a hellish week at work, and I too woke up "kind of cruddy" to the point that my alcoholic brain had to do a double take "did I DRINK last night?!"

     

    Thankfully, no, just tired because of legitimate reasons not those I used to create for myself through far too many tequilas.

     

    Mac, we must've crossed paths up in Breck by a day or two - day we left (early in the month) was 28 degrees that morning.  Hard to beat.

  6. 2 hours ago, BearSchlong said:

    @Bash Riprock - it's called "field research" - I did it intensely for 22 years, and my dissertation on that particular course of study concluded that I'm a garden variety alcoholic.

    Alcoholism is nothing more than self loathing.

    The only way that I find relief from that is AA and 12 step recovery.  It's simple, brilliant, and liberating.

    If my creator doesn't want me living happy, joyous, and free. . .well, then he can go to hell.  Give me a call, at the least I'll make you laugh. Seriously, I need it.  You've got my number.

    Alcoholism is nothing more than self loathing.

     

    Well said, Bear.

     

    Glad to be here and in the physical and zoom rooms, too.  By my Higher Power's grace, was able to celebrate 3 years last week.

     

    Thanks to all you guys on this board here and at ToS, all of whom I led myself to believe I was unlike.  Thanks for being raw and honest and vulnerable.

     

    CdM

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  7. 10 hours ago, Hate said:

    My grandparents used that to set the "new" TV on for 20 years after the one in the console went out.

    My inlaws STILL do that.  The old TV "cabinet" is sturdy and heavy af, so they're like "FUCK IT."

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  8. Been hookin' 'em and hearting some older posts.  Just haven't been here in a while and having one of those days, so greatly appreciate the "this too shall pass," and "have that second thought" comments in the last month.

     

    Appreciate all y'all, and happy to be sober today no matter my circumstances.

     

    CDM

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  9. On 3/13/2021 at 10:10 PM, Lobo said:

    I got the recipe from "Ladies Home Journal."  The mail got wet in the rain, so some of the pages ran together.  But what I couldn't read, I just improvised with my own little creative ideas.  You see, it's got raisins in it.  You like raisins?  

    Charles DeMar approves this message.

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  10. Did something with a similar tube as cousin eddie guy, but was at "stupid things wife says/does" insisting.  Far less cool than the guy with the trailer and the outfit.

     

    Was a cluster, anyway.  Kids shoving their hands in it all the time and likely infected one another 20x over.  Not that I care or was worried about it, but wife, to her credit, said 'parents might appreciate it.'

     

    One kid said "hey, she got two!!!"  I said "I gave everybody two.  Did you actually watch how many went in your bag?!"  "Oh, no."  Felt like retiring for the evening at that point and the Larry David video summed it up for me.

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  11. On 5/16/2020 at 6:16 PM, Beau Vine said:

    One of the greats to come out of Denton. Also, me.

    My dad taught her at NTSU.

    Her, you, and me.  Home of the Fighting Denton Broncos, baby (back when that was the only high school).

    Shirley Cothran Barret also Denton girl turned Miss America.

     

     

  12. On 4/29/2020 at 12:40 PM, lockport said:

    That video was good but the fire hydrant pushed it to another level. 

    Videographer to Toyota gal - "Girl, you got to leave!"

    Toyota gal - "man, IDGAF!!!!"

    Videographer - "ok, do yo thang."

     

    5 stars

  13. Struggling mightily with resentment right now, fellas. I keep telling myself "God's to deal with, not mine," and appreciate Reagan for saying as much.  Working from home ain't for the weak, I've found out over the course of 1.5 days.  Resentment deals with my wife basically reading COVID-19 stories ALL DAY LONG on her phone while I'm trying to keep people fed and safe while still trying to produce for work.  

     

    I realize she's doing the next right thing for her, which is important to her to know all about this (she's the type who likes to have "all" the information / options so she can choose (slowly) what she sees as the best decision)

     

    Anyways, don't have a meeting to attend right this second, so I've been reaching out to brothers in arms, and that includes you guys, today.

     

    Appreciate you guys and all you contribute.  I'm going to try and meditate for a bit and hopefully calm down and realize that's her journey, not mine, and I've chosen this life of service to her and the kids from the day I asked her to be my bride.  My resentment isn't helping anything, especially me and my relationship with her, my bride.

     

    Thanks guys,

     

    CDM

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  14. On 3/10/2020 at 6:23 PM, BearSchlong said:

    I know a guy who saw a guy guy shoot his sponsor during a meeting. I have personally seen a guy tackle a violent drunk guy in a meeting, throw him over his shoulder, take him to the parking lot, and sit with him for an hour just talking.

    I've seen the police cruising the parking lot at meetings, looking for certain license plates.

    Wow.  Apparently I'm going to the wrong (?) meetings. 

  15. Update:  Got over my woe is me.  Meeting I attended yesterday focused on the promises, and I was able to reflect on the serenity prayer and the promises and how I can't change / control my wife's situation, but can change my attitude and my actions.

     

    Also, working with a new sponsor.  Old school kind of guy and we went through the Doctor's Opinion last night for 90 minutes.  He was a really cranky cuss the first time I met him (I think had been burned by a couple of sponsees recently, so was leery), but warmed a bit and we had a great (for me) time studying together.


    Didn't hurt that my wife was frisky and we talked about $$$ some last night, too.  Those two things almost never happen, especially not within hours of one another.

     

    Blessed to be alive today.  Was headed toward my demise in my drink.  Black outs nearly every night, drinking during the day.  I'm blessed to have a new lease on life.

     

    Thanks, guys.

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