Man, I have got to vent and my sponsor is on the golf course. Just FYI, Aug 10, 2018 sobriety date, go to 3-5 meetings (almost all in person) a week and work with a great sponsor.
A tie-in to "good job market" talk not going away, I was recently contacted by a recruiter for a position that aligns very nicely with my experience and preferences, would be a move back to Austin from Houston (pros and cons all around) and although not a likely 2.2x income increase, llikely a nice uptick. Although there are plenty of reasons to leave my current gig, there are many more reasons to stay, so I wasn't really looking. I have been battling my tendency to "what if" this thing, and remarkably have been pretty good about being at peace with "maybe works out, maybe doesn't, but God's got this either way."
Well, I fell off that wagon and am all twisted off now. Lots of planning to get to Austin tonight for second round interview tomorrow and just heard they need to postpone. Felt badly having the "half truth" with my boss to get up there and take the day off tomorrow, set up a non-refundable but reimbursable hotel room, was taking the wife and kids as we then would go up to the Metroplex for weekend plans (Frisco), etc.
My "directing of the play" is going as one would expect.
Anyways, how quickly I can go from trusting my Higher Power to a fearful, seething mess. I'm still and alcoholic and without my daily repreive, I'd be an actively drinking alcoholic.
Thanks for letting me vent. I need to give it back up to the One who truly is in control and get out of myself.
Thanks for listening.