Ok.
I'm an effort to keep this short... let's just say i had an abusive upbringing and was homeless at 15-16 years old.
Recently my dad came to see me, and was asking for forgiveness, and wanting absolution for it (he wasn't the abuser)
Turns out it was because he was having open heart surgery and was trying to kind of balance his accounts.
Now, this is all ok.
But ever since, I've been remembering all of this shit. It's been haunting me.
I have drinks on a regular basis, but now it seems like I'm drinking more and more frequently to kind of ease my tension.
I've talked to my wife about what I'm going through, but it's still haunting me.
Where do I start to get rid of this and get back to happiness? I've literally been remembering shit I had long forgotten-- or not even cared about-- at work, while driving, and vividly in my dreams.
1) does this all go away when I relive all of it?
2) how do I blow all of this out of my brain?