You bring up several important, but nuanced points.
I'm talking about the small farmers who I grew up with. I know they are racists. The n-word was not normalized, it was normal.
I know they cashed the checks. But 2 things: the checks weren't that big and it cuts against the way they view of themselves.
Industrial farming got the biggest bailout. We know that industrial farming provides the most product, and it gets a disproportionate amount of subsidy. Small farmers are more numerous, less overall productive, and get disproportionately less subsidy (data and reference below).
Plus, small farmer aren't comfortable on the public dole (even though they've been subsidized for decades--don't bring that up), for the same reason they feel comfortable using the n-word.
The discrepancy is between reality and self perception, which we all also acknowledge.
https://www.ewg.org/interactive-maps/2021-farm-subsidies-ballooned-under-trump/
For example, through the MFP in 2018 and 2019:
The top 1 percent of recipients received 16 percent of payments, with an average total payment for both years of $524,298 per farm. The top 10 percent received 58 percent of payments, with an average total payment of $185,340.
The bottom 80 percent of recipients received only 23 percent of payments – an average payment for both years of only $9,109 per recipient.