I could probably write a post, the length of which would have Lobo shaking his head. But I'll try to keep this short. I was raised in a republican household and always thought I was a republican. I watched Fox News beginning in the late 90s. But I always was pro choice and recall thinking the Clinton impeachment was a stupid waste of time. I voted for Bush in 2000. In about 2003, I was sitting in bed one morning before work, and I was watching Fox News. This is around the time all the information about our "reasons" for invading Iraq were unraveling. And all of a sudden, like a light turned on, I thought, I'm being manipulated. I turned the TV off and never watched that dumb channel again. The self-evaluation that followed was pretty concise. Without going through the laundry list of what I believe, on the social side of things, i.e., pro choice, pro LGBTQ+, pro social programs, etc., I'm liberal. On the economic side, I'm moderate and probably left-leaning. What the hell was I thinking? Anyway, for the last 20 years, I have voted for Democrats in national elections and because of the part of the state in which I live, have voted in republican primaries (because that's where the action is).
Anyway, as time went on, particularly starting with the short-lived rise Sarah Palin and the genesis of the Tea Party, I really started to go from I don't identify with the republican party to Something seems really rotten and festering on that side of the aisle. And that feeling has worsened over the years with Trump now leading the charge. It probably always was there. But it has a face and an odor now.
On point, I'm enthusiastic about voting for a democrat this cycle because that seems like the only reasonable thing for me to do for the future of our country. That hurts to type. I'd like to see a healthy debate of issues resulting in reasonable, well-thought-out governance. And maybe we can get back to that point. Or maybe the future is just debate within the democratic party between election cycles. But this year, when I voted in the primaries, where ordinarily I would ask for a republican ballot (that's where the action is locally), I just couldn't say it. I didn't want to identify with what that word has become even for the sake of pragmatism. So I pulled a D-ballot.
I don't know if I understand this thread. So if I missed the point, please nuke this post, which despite my best intentions, is definitely TLDR.
edit to add, I may have violated Rule 3. I'll leave it up just in case. But it's been a journey, which doesn't make sense without considering the other side.