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ernest_t_bass

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  1. Thoughts on 0.0% beer? Since day 1 of sobriety, I have not had one, nor wanted one. I had some this past week. My thoughts are that I don't think it is a good idea for me, so I will refrain moving forward.
  2. "Creeps" is a better way to describe it, as it is not growing, rather it comes and goes. The times are few and far between.
  3. Yeah. I have no desire to drink. Just that "thought" creeping back in. I will be at the lowest of lows if and when I ever drink again. With the joy I have in my heart from the Holy Spirit, I'm good!
  4. I liked it first season. 2nd season didn’t catch me. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
  5. Could use T&P. Marriage is on the rocks. Wife is running away. To be honest, she's running from her own guilt, and chasing a worldly "happiness." The reason I post this here is b/c the thought of drinking is creeping in. I don't have the desire. I don't necessarily have the craving. But the thought is creeping back. Tried to take my wife out last weekend. She was full and got up from the table, half a beer. I joked, "Want ME to finish it?" ... "I don't care. If you want to, go ahead." I share that to show how her heart has turned too.
  6. I can't get through Last Kingdom. Does it get better? I may be on Season 2:3
  7. Help me price this, please. 2017 New Holland Workmaster 33 + Woods RT 60.40 Tiller 116 hours 33 HP 25 PTO HP 60" Loader Hydrostatic transmission Original owner. Never serviced ~50 hours on tiller Suggested sale price on tractor alone (via tractor buy net) is $19,500. Asking $19,500 for both of them.
  8. Heavens no, brother. This is for all of us. What you've shared fits my exact intent of this thread. To God be the glory that we can use this cesspool of a site (I kid, I kid) to reach out and find comfort in one another in times of need.
  9. I'm going to keep it short b/c I don't want to steal from Trey. But my wife is colder by the day, while my fire burns hotter. She wants to move out. I want to get baptized. Prayers needed. Awesome stuff, Trey!
  10. Awesome stuff, Trey. Continued prayer for continued blessings!
  11. Started The Blacklist. Watched it years ago, but not sure where I ended it.
  12. Awesome stuff, Trey. The power and comfort of prayer is like nothing else on earth. Blessings to you and your family!
  13. I love the Office for what it is. I don't set high lofty expectations on my comedy.
  14. I still play THPS 2 on N64.
  15. Update - things not looking good. My kids are out of the church, but my wife's resentment towards me is x10. She told my oldest daughter, but decided to do it on her own. If you pray, I need as much as you are willing to pray. I'm so broken and devastated right now. Christ came into my life at the exact right time. Peace, brothers and sisters.
  16. I hate tapa. Why on earth wouldn’t tapa make subscribed threads sort by last updated? Is it borked or am I borked? Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
  17. Just started Umbrella Academy with my daughter.
  18. Bump My counselor has me going through Romans 12:9-21 and breaking down each verse, and different parts of individual verses, and journaling how I can use what God says and apply it to my marriage, and apply it to how I choose to treat my wife. Example, verse 9 says that "love must be sincere" (NIV) or "without hypocrisy" (NASB). Great discussion with him on how to break that down, what it looks like, and how to apply it to our marriage. I'm telling you, I'm loving this counselor. Really challenging my heart, getting me into the word, and helping me keep my focus on my own personal relationship with God, above my marriage. When I'm focusing too much on our marriage as a primary focus, I get clouded by selfishness, and lack of reciprocation.
  19. Watched The Peanut Butter Falcon with the family. Solid, heart warming flick. 9/10
  20. We were seeing a counselor (against her will, imagine that), but it didn't pan out. Don't get me wrong, our attitudes were completely different going in. I wanted conviction, and I wanted to be rocked, so I could make fundamental changes in my life. She currently runs from conviction and struggle (minions doing work). However, the counselor was a jerk, in my opinion. He didn't know how to handle people differently. He spoke to me on my character/personality level, and got through to me, but he tried to talk to her in the same regard, and it backed her into a corner. Yes, part of that was conviction, but he didn't handle her with grace. I'm not just sticking up for her, b/c I think there is some "cop out" in it, but he was an arse. I've sense been talking to a new counselor, a pastor friend, who has been in credible. He's a professional in character value set analysis and application and works with high profile people in state and federal governments (secret service to name one). He has been wonderful for me, and it is not anything I'm forcing on my wife, as badly as I want her to participate. Over our 12 year marriage, it didn't matter how hard she tried (same with alcoholism), no changes were going to be made unless ETB decided to make changes for the good of his own self. As a believer, I truly believe in the power of prayer, so all I can do is relentlessly pray, seek positive earthly counsel, seek the Word, and seek Christ through thought and action. May the fruits of my labor be a light to encourage change.
  21. 1 - For the record, this is not "my church." I attended bed side baptist for the last 4-5 years. This was my wife's church that she took the kids, joined her mom, etc. Without discussion, she just no longer wanted to attend our old church (I liked that church). I have never liked the church where they decided to migrate, b/c it is weak theology... bread and water, no meat. The pastor has apologized to me, and I bought it. Stupid me. 2 - As a 5-year recovering drunk, I served self, and chased the next drink, never the last. Took me 5 years to stop those ways, even though alcohol is no longer present. I still struggle mightily. We are very different people, but divorce is not an option for me. I want to respect each other, and learn to love each other for our differences, not resent each other. It took me a LONG time for Christ to get ahold of my heart, so I'm holding out hope for her. I once despised the ground she walked on, zero attraction, etc. When I learned (again) the true love of Christ, "While we were still sinners, Christ died for us," and that truly and sincerely hit my heart like a freight train, I saw this woman for the first time. Love overcame me, and it still does to this very day. While I get frustrated, I'm letting go of resentments, and I'm learning to LOVE!
  22. I listen to Sirius XM Channel 63 to immerse myself with the positive atmosphere in which I want to live. It has nothing to do with anyone else besides me. It's not blared aloud as I cruise the streets. It's for me and my own heart. I love Mercy Me.
  23. Go on? Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
  24. Aside from God's will. My will. Etc. My kids can't be taught the word of God by someone their mother had an affair with. If the husband has an affair with the babysitter, you don't still keep taking your kids to the same babysitter.
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