54 and i lift...a lot. 2x/day, in fact. and between that and genetics (both shoulders have a torn cuff, torn lambrum, bone spurs, foreign bodies, fluid and severe osteoarthritis...bone on bone, i'm scheduled for a total shoulder replacement on 3/25, and the other shoulder in Sept. fuck this shit, but i have to...i can no longer get a coffee cup out of the cupboard with either arm. all my lifting is now to the point where i'm having to modify every damn lift/exercise, and it's just become too much of a pain in the ass. can't sleep on either side, and if i do i'm up within the hour b/c of the gotdamn arthritis pain.
thing is, b/c of my addiction, i can't take pain meds...not even post-surgical.
so i'm doing this thing without narcotics. and it's fucked up spooky...but not as spooky as the shit i went through. and there's no fucking way i'm going to be in more pain than i am right now.
in short...fuck getting old.