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BBQ2Bayou

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  1. Are you really short? 39 inch waist at 200 pounds seems large to me. I'm only 5 10 and around 200 and wear a 36 right now. I went up to a 38 for a while, but I was 215.
  2. Every day I read this thread and every day something is said here that I can relate to and helps remind me that I'm not alone in this. And it's really a great place to be able to lean on. But sometimes, often really, somebody just knocks it out of the fucking park. And this one hit hard today.
  3. I'm working at different actual firehouses right now and they all have offset smokers out back. Made me want to be a fireman all over again.
  4. That murderer is gonna kick himself when the collection company starts calling and asking for that monitoring fee that backed up.
  5. bet there's ACL underbutt though
  6. Man I'm sorry @thestud. No words, just sucks for all involved and way too young.
  7. Along those lines, I've been wondering a little bit about PAWS. I've read some on it briefly, but it just seems to be you can get really moody out of the blue for a couple days, up to a couple years after sobriety. I don't know that I would be able to tell because I haven't been sober since I was 14 so how would I know? Is it something you guys have dealt with and is it obvious what's going on when it occurs? I think I was always moody anyway, so I'm not sure if I'd know if it was coming from psychological withdrawal from alcohol or just who I am.
  8. My friend's wife got sober a couple years ago and says now it's funny as hell catching all of the stuff the drunk people say at business dinners that she knows they are regretting the next day. Said she feels like she kind of has a leg up on most of the heavy drinkers because she remembers it all and doesn't slip up and say stupid shit like she used to. So there's that.
  9. Now we're doing high waisted bikinis? This madness needs to stop. Now. But terrific picture, regardless.
  10. What is it about travel for work that is hard for some of you? Being stuck in a hotel at night? Being away from people you don't have to hide it from temporarily? Is it different than the social situations where you used to drink just because those are optional and work trips aren't? I haven't found that to be all that difficult, but I have lived alone for most of my adult life, so maybe that's a difference. I can see the temporary freedom to be a big trigger if you don't have it very often. I also still prefer to be around people that are drinking, so I might be unusual like that. Sober people bore me. Not the falling down drunk, hanging all over you people. I can do without that shit for sure. Just mean the normal drinkers that are having a good time and like to over-imbibe on occasion. If I had any friends in Austin, I imagine I would go out more now than when I was drinking. Whether it was mainly a drinking environment or not.
  11. That's the kind of shit that makes me laugh, weep and keep on reading. I think it's just tremendous when things get so heated on the internet.com
  12. How did you feel for the 2.5 years you were sober? I don't mean why did you relapse. That's easy. You're an alcoholic. All the stories from people, it's kind of rare to hear one that just kicked it the first time. But how did you feel sober? Did you feel boring and safe, or did you just think everyone around you thought you were boring and safe? Because I'm guessing that people who know/knew you, didn't think you were boring when you were sober and the life of the party when you were drunk. They probably thought when you were sober, they really liked being around you, and when you were drunk/high, they thought you were a dipshit. I'm talking about normal people. Not us. Did you want to put a bullet in your head all of those sober 2.5 years, or did that start in the last year? Or did that start before you even knew that booze could put a temporary band-aid on those thoughts? That's kind of an important thing to think about. You're depressed and miserable. There is no way to get rid of that feeling without giving yourself a chance to think about it. You are not capable of thinking about that clearly right now and you won't be if you keep going. And you probably won't be without somebody walking you through it. A sponsor, a therapist, a friend, something. Anything. You are too far gone right now. We have all been too far gone at some point that the outlook is so fucking bleak, there doesn't seem to be any other way things could be. It's a dangerous and dark place and you're smack it the middle of it. But you know what? You're here and you're talking about it. You know you're fucked right now and don't want to be there. It's just a deep hole you're looking up from and the top seems so far up there that what's the point? It's too much to climb up there. What's up there is what you're looking for. Part of your brain is telling you that, but it doesn't seem in any way attainable. Whether you believe it or not, there are people that want to throw a rope down to you. Just grab on and let them help.
  13. Have any links that you like? I would like to give this a try. Good work on the 500 days. You and I are only 2 or 3 days apart. I don't look at my amount of time app everyday to see how long it's been, but I was aware when 500 was coming up. It seemed like an accomplishment. I still don't really allow myself to be proud of not drinking because I'm hard on myself and think it's my own fault for ever putting myself in a situation that I couldn't control, but I'm starting to come around to maybe it's ok to pat myself on the back every now and then. Anyway, 500 days felt like a pretty damn good thing to me.
  14. So that would have to be Amber telling her attorney they hadn't been fucking for months, right?
  15. Will this girl be live tweeting like the girl in the starfucker killer case? Not quite as fascinating as that one, but that was a good way to follow it. For me, at least.
  16. My Pixel 3XL seems more sluggish than my Samsung S6, S7, and S8. It's only slightly noticeable, but it is. Maybe I just have a bunch of shit on there that is slowing it down. I've never looked into how to keep phones running optimally. And like Lob said, the battery ain't great.
  17. HUTCHINS BBQ (MCKINNEY) How is this place? I'll be in McKinney all week.
  18. Would this be along the lines of a Burn Notice, White Collar, Person of Interest kind of show?
  19. I feel like a simpleton or something for not understanding the appeal of these exaggerated dubbed shows, but I just can't do it. Am I missing out on some sort of TV or movie making art that I don't get or is it just that easy for other people to look past? Is it just easier or better to watch than reading subtitles or is it something else? I'm genuinely curious about this.
  20. I'm just jealous they need coats.
  21. Yeah, I looked it up after I asked. 2.2 million or something a year. I had no idea. Was thinking a couple hundred thousand. Carry on with regularly scheduled dark man killing.
  22. A million people go to that state fair? Is that for real?
  23. Everything. I loved getting drunk on everything. Some more than others and there are different kinds of drunks with different booze and different combos, but still loved all of them. I would switch around and didn't care. If I started with wine, I'd drink that for a while, have some whiskey, maybe a beer, back to wine, 6 quick beers, why not a margarita since it's right there in the blender.
  24. Damn @El Diablo Really sorry to hear that. Hang in there, man.
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