serious: the hell that i just went through at Georgetown Behavioral Health Institute

[Chopper 17153]

Just leaving this free link here, from today's NYT https://archive.ph/n7NKM Probably not related to Gtown but...

 

[RockyMountainHighHorn 889]

On 8/7/2024 at 3:59 PM, Derka said:

first off thank you for that, that kind of response/empathy/commiseration means more than you know. and you really pin pointed one of the major issues that most folks don’t think about- my mom, psychiatrist, therapist, and friends all want to help me, and i want to help myself, and these are my options. there are no actual real-time solutions.

my mom is still messed up. just earlier today she was visibly upset and still apologizing to me (of course i’ve told her repeatedly that she was just trying to do what she thought would help me), but she can’t help but see how different i’ve been since i’ve come out of that place, and (at times) she’s still wrought with guilt from her decision to try and help me.

beyond that, a common refrain that i’ve hopelessly/helplessly expressed throughout the years is that, “everyone else who’s sick has a place to go when they get sick- their doctor, a pharmacy, the ER, the hospital- there is something out there that’s designed to take care of them when they get the flu, when their blood sugar drops, when they have an ibs flare up, etc. but i don’t have any such place.” there is no place for people like me to go when i haven’t gotten real sleep in over a month and now my mental illness is “flaring” as i call it. i can either try and ride it out at home/in public where i may genuinely be a threat to myself and others, or i can check myself into some place where ill be taken off my meds, mistreated, neglected, and then released in 7-10 days worse off than i was before. those are my options. 

hinestly, i take great pride in how far i’ve come, as well as the fact that i’ve never quit trying to improve myself and my life, considering what my life has been like, and the obstacles that i still face daily. i really am proud to have grown this much, and it means a lot to me when someone here mentions they’ve noticed. so thank you again for that. 🤘🏼 

I hear you on this. Dm me if you ever need. Have been in that cycle before. 

[bernorange 8348]

On 8/3/2024 at 1:39 PM, Derka said:

... i developed (acquired?) myoclonic epilepsy:

... and i’ve been on benzos ever since. as you alluded to, i tend to have bad reactions to most drugs, ...

FYI (might be worth discussing with your doctor):

https://www.coping-with-epilepsy.com/pages/piracetam/

[Derka 5935]

i appreciate you both, and i am going to talk to my doctor about that myoclonic jerks treatment.

on a germane note to this thread, last week i was walking into my bedroom when i slipped on some water and tore my meniscus and my lcl. my cat-like speed and reflexes were not enough to save me this time. 😔 

[flatdawgs 1256]

23 hours ago, Chopper said:

Just leaving this free link here, from today's NYT https://archive.ph/n7NKM Probably not related to Gtown but...

 

"A leading chain of psychiatric hospitals...." "...to maximize insurance payouts...."

'Murica kicks ass in so many ways.

This is where 'Murica sucks ass.

[Deej 76553]

21 hours ago, Derka said:

i appreciate you both, and i am going to talk to my doctor about that myoclonic jerks treatment.

on a germane note to this thread, last week i was walking into my bedroom when i slipped on some water and tore my meniscus and my lcl. my cat-like speed and reflexes were not enough to save me this time. 😔 

Obligatory...

 

[Sharon 6]

My daughter went in Friday for one on one counseling.  She saw a suicide up close and hasn't been able to reconcile this. But the intake staff saw her 20 year old cutting scars and locked her up against her will. Its now Wednesday and they refuse to release her. Son in law is fighting it. Police involved.  They threatened keep her to 45 days if she signed the AMA release form. Police made them give it to her. 24 hours later we find out they didn't.  This place is horrible. She will be scarred far worse now than when she went in. And she is a teacher and mother of 3. And it is her 35th birthday and her daughters 15th birthday.  She was told if she stayed she could leave any time but definitely by Sunday at dinner so she can go back to work on Monday. Yet all doors are chained, she was physically restrained when she went to walk out and they are medicating her. Now this lock up could cost her her teaching job. This place needs to be shut down!

[Derka 5935]

14 hours ago, Sharon said:

My daughter went in Friday for one on one counseling.  She saw a suicide up close and hasn't been able to reconcile this. But the intake staff saw her 20 year old cutting scars and locked her up against her will. Its now Wednesday and they refuse to release her. Son in law is fighting it. Police involved.  They threatened keep her to 45 days if she signed the AMA release form. Police made them give it to her. 24 hours later we find out they didn't.  This place is horrible. She will be scarred far worse now than when she went in. And she is a teacher and mother of 3. And it is her 35th birthday and her daughters 15th birthday.  She was told if she stayed she could leave any time but definitely by Sunday at dinner so she can go back to work on Monday. Yet all doors are chained, she was physically restrained when she went to walk out and they are medicating her. Now this lock up could cost her her teaching job. This place needs to be shut down!

i am so sorry you’re going through this. nobody deserves this. i wish i could say differently, but i’ve changed since i was in there. i’m just not the same person. more angry, more short with people, sleep issues worse than i had before, more hopeless; the truth is that a ton of the work that i spent years doing has been undone by less than one week in that place. it’s seriously cruel and inhumane. they’ve taken someone who you love who needs medical and psychological help and all they’ve done (all they do) is increase the trauma. i wish i had anything hopeful to say. all i can come up with is that i hope that your daughter gets out as soon as possible, and that y’all are able to be there for her in any way possible. i sincerely wish you the best.

[Derka 5935]

On 8/3/2024 at 1:42 PM, Derka said:

god this was so evident with a few of the people there. just showing up to work mad and taking it out on the patients. like i said, it’s an absolute madhouse in there, so i get it, but damn- you can’t do doordash? favor? only fans? working at these places and being part of the cycle of misery has got to be a terrible life.

i went to the brand new heb that opened today, and one of the workers there reminded me of that particularly horrible cunt who i described in my video. i caught a glimpse of her, and my bones chilled, and it took me a second to get enough f my bearings to focus and see that it obviously wasn’t her. shit like that still happens for me. the first 2-3 weeks after i got out it took me hours to fall asleep because my mind would race with thoughts of revenge, anger, violence, etc. i’ve improved since then, but i’ve still been knocked back a few years in terms of mental and emotional progress. they really did a number on me in there. 

[B00M 6280]

16 hours ago, Sharon said:

My daughter went in Friday for one on one counseling.  She saw a suicide up close and hasn't been able to reconcile this.

Did your daughter have a relationship with the person? Depending on the circumstances, there are almost certainly survivor groups in the Austin area where she can share her story with other people that went through very similar shit. It sounds awful but it will help. 

6 days in the place Derka described will really fuck her up. You’ve got to get her out and help her however you can. 

 

[Pam Cummings 9569]

How does a place like this not get sued to Bolivia? This is a scam. Stuff like this is crazy and hurts all of us, not just the vulnerable mentally ill people they are preying on.

[TwiceHorn 31266]

15 minutes ago, Pam Cummings said:

How does a place like this not get sued to Bolivia? This is a scam. Stuff like this is crazy and hurts all of us, not just the vulnerable mentally ill people they are preying on.

I might suppose that it is difficult to prove causation of, and in most cases, compensable injury (compensable meaning beyond sort of dignitary).  And that's before you take into account Texas' med mal "reforms" that make it more difficult.

An "ideal" med mal case has conduct falling below the standard of care that causes a serious and incapacitating physical injury, for a person at an age where their earning capacity is diminished or destroyed, preferably someone with an established potentially high earning capacity.  And, with large lifetime care costs.

Medical causation can be a sticky wicket in any case, but I'd imagine particularly so in psychiatric care, and a lot of the patients don't tend to meet the other criteria.