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Keytruda appears to be trying to put an -itis on my kidney, so we are pausing it and trying some stuff. I am back on the Lenvima though, so not completely unprotected. My bodily numbers have got the wobbles but not all the way haywire. My Cartoonishly Swollen Feet are down thanks to a diuretic and hellaspensive German compression socks. They are giving me a steroid for something else so I am faux-diabetic again at least for this weekend.

Doc wants me doing more exercise, maybe Yoga. I see it as an excuse to get back up with my old Wing Chun Kung Fu group, which is kinda Yoga-y. I also need to hit some weights because I scrawned out during a past weight decline. It is coming back, but I hope not blobularly.

I want to get a trip into Mexico to search for old books, Baja Hoodies, and other rarities. December is chock-full of shows, and since October they started being G.O.O.D. shows, so can't miss em. But Jan-Feb tend towards bleakness and living-off-the-credit-card anyway. That might be a good time. Currently thinking about flying into Mexico City, stay at small hotel I know near the Zócalo, search books nearby and/or go tour Estudios Churubusco south of town. Then maybe Spanish my way into storing heavy stuff at hotel pending my eventual return, and take off by bus towards Teotihuacan, Tlaxcala (Baja Hoodie Factories), Veracruz (reminds me of our favorite Chanoc movie contra el tigre y el vampiro) then back up via local buses so as to replicate the old passenger train route. I figure keep it less than 3,000 bucks for 10 days or so given my propensity for taco stands, clean $15 dollar hotels, and slow bus travel.

Get that all done and they can't take it from me if 2025 brings some random-slam to the old bod. :)

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4 minutes ago, RDCanecutter said:

Keytruda appears to be trying to put an -itis on my kidney, so we are pausing it and trying some stuff. I am back on the Lenvima though, so not completely unprotected. My bodily numbers have got the wobbles but not all the way haywire. My Cartoonishly Swollen Feet are down thanks to a diuretic and hellaspensive German compression socks. They are giving me a steroid for something else so I am faux-diabetic again at least for this weekend.

Doc wants me doing more exercise, maybe Yoga. I see it as an excuse to get back up with my old Wing Chun Kung Fu group, which is kinda Yoga-y. I also need to hit some weights because I scrawned out during a past weight decline. It is coming back, but I hope not blobularly.

I want to get a trip into Mexico to search for old books, Baja Hoodies, and other rarities. December is chock-full of shows, and since October they started being G.O.O.D. shows, so can't miss em. But Jan-Feb tend towards bleakness and living-off-the-credit-card anyway. That might be a good time. Currently thinking about flying into Mexico City, stay at small hotel I know near the Zócalo, search books nearby and/or go tour Estudios Churubusco south of town. Then maybe Spanish my way into storing heavy stuff at hotel pending my eventual return, and take off by bus towards Teotihuacan, Tlaxcala (Baja Hoodie Factories), Veracruz (reminds me of our favorite Chanoc movie contra el tigre y el vampiro) then back up via local buses so as to replicate the old passenger train route. I figure keep it less than 3,000 bucks for 10 days or so given my propensity for taco stands, clean $15 dollar hotels, and slow bus travel.

Get that all done and they can't take it from me if 2025 brings some random-slam to the old bod. :)


Not trying to humblebrag, but for crazy reasons unknown to me, I have two credit cards that, together, amount to 100k of credit.  I pay them off every month, so there's almost always 100k of credit available to me. I've always thought that if I get some bad news vis a vis cancer or some other ailment, I'm going to go to Paris or Bora Bora, check into an expensive hotel, go to the best restaurants, drink and and dance as long and as hard as I can, and then shuffle off this mortal coil, leaving my last bill unpaid.  At least, that's what I think about doing. But then there's this conflicting thought: I've had credit cards for more than 40 years and have never paid a penny of interest on any of them because I pay them off every month. I'd feel bad knowing that I was going to break my streak.  My FICO score didn't just build itself, damnit!

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2 hours ago, Hornius Emeritus said:


Not trying to humblebrag, but for crazy reasons unknown to me, I have two credit cards that, together, amount to 100k of credit.  I pay them off every month, so there's almost always 100k of credit available to me. I've always thought that if I get some bad news vis a vis cancer or some other ailment, I'm going to go to Paris or Bora Bora, check into an expensive hotel, go to the best restaurants, drink and and dance as long and as hard as I can, and then shuffle off this mortal coil, leaving my last bill unpaid.  At least, that's what I think about doing. But then there's this conflicting thought: I've had credit cards for more than 40 years and have never paid a penny of interest on any of them because I pay them off every month. I'd feel bad knowing that I was going to break my streak.  My FICO score didn't just build itself, damnit!

Congrats on livin right!

I am not gloom n doom, 1/10 worried about a slip in health, 9/10 just lookin for an excuse to go to Mexico.

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Things just goin in circles here like a rabbit runnin around a stump.

I forget all the reasons, but Keytruda may have popped my kidney on the lip. So to help heal it, they wanna give me steroids. But steroids make me diabetic. Anyway, it's stable.

Went to see a GP today I was going to in the Days Before Cancer, she looked at my kidney function, said: "It's not that bad," and ordered me some insulin and a glucose meter.

Then I get a text from Oncologist who wants to admit me so they can feed me steroids and insulin at the same time. To which I replied:

No. Please no. Just no. I got shows I already paid to be in, when people spend money, hospitals are cold bright and noisy, and I ain't sick, I can give myself insulin or we can do some outpatient deal don't put me in that cold noisy hospital, and YOU KNOW there'll be some busybody hospital doctor who won't let me go until my jacked-up blood pressure drops to some number it hasn't been in a year DON'T TELL ME TO RELAX and who's gonna feed the animals while I'm freezin in that icy waste tryin to relax my ass to freedom?

So she said maybe not. We'll see. I am supposed to meet her Thursday inside the UAB mega-complex. Need to go online and find blueprints of the interstitials in case it turns into a game of Escape Room.

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I'm posting in case it helps one of you or your loved ones. I have a benign tumor (schwannoma) in the sinus cavernous portion of my brain and have had to get an annual MRI. No symptoms, no changes for 6 or 7 years. It was discovered accidentally. But at the end of last year they picked up some very slow growth and said it was close to my left optic nerve. The recommendation was radiation therapy. I said, sure, what the fuck. I thought it was going to be like a fucking tanning bed, that's how ignorant I was. Holy fuck, did radiation on my brain kick the crap out of me. I wasn't ready for it. There were many days I was so dizzy, off-balance and out of breath that I couldn't walk to the street corner. The off-balance feeling has continued for months - in my head it feels like I'm on a moving train going over bump after bump, or in a boat. It's been miserable. And it's now been more than 6 months since my last dose of radiation. Every doctor I spoke with (oncologists, neurologist, ENT) basically shrugged their shoulders. Dumb Harvard Med-educated cunts. All of 'em. Then on the same day in September 2 different sources, neither of whom are MDs, mentioned Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy. I was surprised to learn that Fort Collins has the oldest and one of the few hyperbaric facilities in CO and it's at the hospital about 5 minute drive from my house. I had to ask the goddamn oncologist to refer me in order to get approval from insurance and that went smoothly. Wasn't his idea but he did it. I've had maybe a dozen sessions so far. Approved by insurance. The purpose is to help tissue recover and create new blood vessels. I was speaking with one of the techs today and a lot of men utilize it while trying to recover from the after-effects of radiation to their prostate. (I asked them why it seemed like most of their patients are men. They said it goes in waves, but apparently right now they're dealing with a few prostate issues.) I already feel improvement from my symptoms. They re-tested me on a few physical tests this morning and documented improvement in my speech and balance. I go every morning M to F and lay in a pressurized glass tube for 3 hours. They have a dvd library and I've lately been rewatching the Sopranos every goddamn morning. 

 

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22 minutes ago, Chopper said:

I'm posting in case it helps one of you or your loved ones. I have a benign tumor (schwannoma) in the sinus cavernous portion of my brain and have had to get an annual MRI. No symptoms, no changes for 6 or 7 years. It was discovered accidentally. But at the end of last year they picked up some very slow growth and said it was close to my left optic nerve. The recommendation was radiation therapy. I said, sure, what the fuck. I thought it was going to be like a fucking tanning bed, that's how ignorant I was. Holy fuck, did radiation on my brain kick the crap out of me. I wasn't ready for it. There were many days I was so dizzy, off-balance and out of breath that I couldn't walk to the street corner. The off-balance feeling has continued for months - in my head it feels like I'm on a moving train going over bump after bump, or in a boat. It's been miserable. And it's now been more than 6 months since my last dose of radiation. Every doctor I spoke with (oncologists, neurologist, ENT) basically shrugged their shoulders. Dumb Harvard Med-educated cunts. All of 'em. Then on the same day in September 2 different sources, neither of whom are MDs, mentioned Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy. I was surprised to learn that Fort Collins has the oldest and one of the few hyperbaric facilities in CO and it's at the hospital about 5 minute drive from my house. I had to ask the goddamn oncologist to refer me in order to get approval from insurance and that went smoothly. Wasn't his idea but he did it. I've had maybe a dozen sessions so far. Approved by insurance. The purpose is to help tissue recover and create new blood vessels. I was speaking with one of the techs today and a lot of men utilize it while trying to recover from the after-effects of radiation to their prostate. (I asked them why it seemed like most of their patients are men. They said it goes in waves, but apparently right now they're dealing with a few prostate issues.) I already feel improvement from my symptoms. They re-tested me on a few physical tests this morning and documented improvement in my speech and balance. I go every morning M to F and lay in a pressurized glass tube for 3 hours. They have a dvd library and I've lately been rewatching the Sopranos every goddamn morning. 

 


I didn't like the beginning of this post but I love the ending. Good luck to you, Chopper. Heal strong and well.  We've got some upcoming national championships that you need to witness.

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5 hours ago, Hornius Emeritus said:


I didn't like the beginning of this post but I love the ending. Good luck to you, Chopper. Heal strong and well.  We've got some upcoming national championships that you need to witness.

Thank you. I'm enjoying your posts on blue sky.

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19 hours ago, RDCanecutter said:

Things just goin in circles here like a rabbit runnin around a stump.

I forget all the reasons, but Keytruda may have popped my kidney on the lip. So to help heal it, they wanna give me steroids. But steroids make me diabetic. Anyway, it's stable.

Went to see a GP today I was going to in the Days Before Cancer, she looked at my kidney function, said: "It's not that bad," and ordered me some insulin and a glucose meter.

Then I get a text from Oncologist who wants to admit me so they can feed me steroids and insulin at the same time. To which I replied:

No. Please no. Just no. I got shows I already paid to be in, when people spend money, hospitals are cold bright and noisy, and I ain't sick, I can give myself insulin or we can do some outpatient deal don't put me in that cold noisy hospital, and YOU KNOW there'll be some busybody hospital doctor who won't let me go until my jacked-up blood pressure drops to some number it hasn't been in a year DON'T TELL ME TO RELAX and who's gonna feed the animals while I'm freezin in that icy waste tryin to relax my ass to freedom?

So she said maybe not. We'll see. I am supposed to meet her Thursday inside the UAB mega-complex. Need to go online and find blueprints of the interstitials in case it turns into a game of Escape Room.

She’s fucking up our Mexico plans. 

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On 12/3/2024 at 7:48 PM, hornbri said:

I just wanted to post an update on my wife.

Kinda a gut punch today, she had been doing well but the CT Scan today showed new spots in her lungs. Dr. said they couldn’t tell what they were and they need to biopsy. She did get diagnosed with pneumonia last month so we are trying to be hopeful it is lingering infection. 

She was almost through chemo hell and we only had a couple of treatments to go, everything had been going so well. Now everything is on hold while we wait. This fucking sucks. 

It's going to be lingering infections. I Have Spoken.

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On 12/3/2024 at 5:48 PM, hornbri said:

I just wanted to post an update on my wife.

Kinda a gut punch today, she had been doing well but the CT Scan today showed new spots in her lungs. Dr. said they couldn’t tell what they were and they need to biopsy. She did get diagnosed with pneumonia last month so we are trying to be hopeful it is lingering infection. 

She was almost through chemo hell and we only had a couple of treatments to go, everything had been going so well. Now everything is on hold while we wait. This fucking sucks. 

I had a spot show on my liver in one of my follow up CTs that ended up being benign fatty deposit.  CTs aren't very precise.  Surprised they didn't then call for a PET CT.  That's what they did for me.  Much more accurate, but also way more expensive so that's why they only do them if they see something.

Just realized it was 2 years ago today that I had very life altering, but ultimately life saving, surgery.  Seems like a long time ago, yet like only yesterday.  

Get my 6 month CT a week from today.

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13 hours ago, Sbbruin said:

I had a spot show on my liver in one of my follow up CTs that ended up being benign fatty deposit.  CTs aren't very precise.  Surprised they didn't then call for a PET CT.  That's what they did for me.  Much more accurate, but also way more expensive so that's why they only do them if they see something.

Just realized it was 2 years ago today that I had very life altering, but ultimately life saving, surgery.  Seems like a long time ago, yet like only yesterday.  

Get my 6 month CT a week from today.

Yeah it was a PET CT, she is getting one every couple of months right now, they were ill defined spots right now. But because she is a sarcoma patient any spots that were not on the last scan are worrying, so they just went right to biopsy. I should be grateful the doctors are being careful, and hopefully it’s just residual from the pneumonia that did occur between the scans.

I think this is the first time I am appreciating that life will never be the same for us, there will be scans for the rest of her life and there will be random setbacks, we somehow need to find the strength to live a full life and not be in fear. 

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@hornbri You will get through this and you can still live a full life. Not cancer, but my wife and I went through the same realization that life would never be the same back in 1988. She was in a bad car wreck, weeks in ICU and months in rehab from a traumatic brain injury. She was 34 then, she turned 70 yesterday. Nothing has been the same since but we hardly notice the concessions we have made to the past events. We lead a very nice life.  Chin up, be her rock and carry on. You can do this together.

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3 hours ago, Shoxthemonkey said:

@hornbri You will get through this and you can still live a full life. 

There are actually some upsides to catching a whiff of cancer. Think of every bullshit time-wasting obligation you do for people. Get a speck of cancer: "Oh hey. Would love to file the TPS compendium. But I got cancer. Gonna go to the beach and console myself."

What helped me the most mentally when I first got in the treatment, was meeting all the mean old fuckers who'd survived 30 years of Stage 4 back when it was stone knives and voodoo rattles. I saw their never-give-up attitude, I truly believe that was a good part of their survival. I thought "I can be a mean old fucker too, yes, I can easily do that."

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Come for the cancer, stay for the diabetes.

I picked up some agitation in my kidney, maybe from the Keytruda. So we paused that, and doc gave my Prednisone to knock out the -itis.

Except I could barely take it because my sugar would spike, like over 600. Is that bad?

After a dance of wrong insulin, denied insulin, and actual prescribed insulin, I am on my second day of stabbing myself with it in the belly.

Yesterday, fuck-all happened but it wasn't too high anyway so we were good. Took my Pred.

Today, I decided to make the game interesting, so I rolled over to Taco Casa and got the #1 special w/enchilada, taco, rice, beans, and a few chips in case the carbs were too weak.

Went home, it's like 380 sugar, I take 6 units (a tad under recs because I don't want to fish-tail it,) an hour later it's 400-something.

I eat meatballs and my Inner British Army Sergeant says "Wait for it... wait for it..." Shortly after that Mrs. Canecutter cooks more low-carb food, I'm at 330-ish.

Fuggit. Stab 6 more units in Mah Bellih.

Right before midnight, blood sugar drops to 188. S'wut I'm talkin about. Throw down some Prednisone goodness.

So why am I still awake? I've got an entry to the Shart 2024 Thread just waiting to jump slap out my ass but it's cagey, it's waiting for me to get up off the toilet.

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Thanks for the update RD, sorry to hear it, but I needed the laugh. 

 

Came here to post a Mrs Fairway update, biopsies showed melanoma in 3 of 4 slides. So second surgery is early January, we meet with the surgeon next week, but I'm pretty sure the procedure is to increase the bit size from 1/16 inch to 1/4 inch for the nasal rotor router. She is pretty freaked out, I'm thinking/hoping it is like getting clean margins, except more difficult inside the nasal passage; and really hoping it is not in the cartilage, or into the oral structure.

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@Chopper in the same line of thinking as HBOT there are treatments across numerous diagnoses that are not pharma based or at least less invasive less permanent. I think traditional medicine is critical and important in major illness but what I learned from a serious case of Covid (a hair away from hospitalization, and a six month journey to the bottom and back) is that there are other treatments we should consider and add.   I found the stellate ganglion block and ketamine to be immensely helpful with neurological concerns like illness induced anxiety and PTSD. I found high dose Vit C IV drips (10g) to be instrumental in combating those free radicals, glutathione too, even oral admin of zinc, C and quercetin  to help with immune function. I’ve taken other subtle things to help aid in healing what I’m pretty sure has been multiple organ injuries (lung, heart and brain) like NOX increasing amino acids (vasodilators), clot reducing supps (nattokinase) and avoided long term meds like beta blockers, gabapentin, low dose naltrexone, and others. And finally and frankly I went on a strict and perfect diet avoiding added sugar without exception. For sleep they offered long term trazadone. I have slowly rebuilt my sleep from averaging 3 hours a night for 6 months back to 7 hours a night with some waking at night. All of the non pharma treatments should NOT be in lieu of traditional treatment but I do think the combined impact of these other treatments with traditional treatments makes a difference. I simply think in today’s medical protocols the answer is almost always pharma and surgery - which I’m not saying should be shunned - but it rarely includes the open mindedness and curiosity for adjunct and non pharma therapies. In my case, I was told repeatedly to go on SSRIs (among considering other harsh meds) as a lazy but permanent “fix” I refused and was able to find a longer path but one that ultimately let me avoid long term meds. Same with my asthma symptoms - severe and uncontrollable - my pulmonologist wanted me on a biologic for the rest of my life.  She told me the stellate ganglion block “wouldn’t work” well fuck me running, it was the cornerstone and pillar of my return to health.  
 

simply put, your health journey is yours. Advocate for yourself, learn how to research like a scientist and bring to bear traditional, non-pharma and diet therapies for your own healing.

with respect to HBOT - fucking A man, good for you to take that into your own hands and make it happen.

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After a few days getting to know Insulin, it's my new best friend, my Elvin blade Sting. Shit works. It's like I suddenly have a brake pedal and steering wheel that work. I still let the sugar run a smidge high, because that's what I deal with best, but am learning how to slowwwly creep it down.

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On 12/5/2024 at 6:04 PM, Sbbruin said:

benign fatty deposit. 

 

On 12/5/2024 at 6:22 PM, Brisketexan said:

Also my wife's pet name for me.

Tough, but fair.

I wouldn't say you're benign, Jerry.

Sending good thoughts to all of you who are battling this during the holidays - stay strong! 

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23 minutes ago, RDCanecutter said:

After a few days getting to know Insulin, it's my new best friend, my Elvin blade Sting. Shit works. It's like I suddenly have a brake pedal and steering wheel that work. I still let the sugar run a smidge high, because that's what I deal with best, but am learning how to slowwwly creep it down.

You might have seen posts about my wife's 2024 birthday present -- diabetes.  Wasn't overweight, didn't drink, ate well, etc.  Spent 6 months FAFO'ing on Type 2 drugs, doc finally figures out it's adult onset Type 1.  She is now on "the jab".  It's a bit of a moving target for sure.  Glad you're figuring it out.

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59 minutes ago, jimmyjazz said:

You might have seen posts about my wife's 2024 birthday present -- diabetes.  Wasn't overweight, didn't drink, ate well, etc.  Spent 6 months FAFO'ing on Type 2 drugs, doc finally figures out it's adult onset Type 1.  She is now on "the jab".  It's a bit of a moving target for sure.  Glad you're figuring it out.

Still have a huge amount to learn, but better than not having it.

This diabetes was supposed to be a 3 hour cruise, but it's got the makings of a beloved multi-year show.

Still not dead though. Rock on.

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9 hours ago, hornbri said:

Winner winner, they got her the CT machine for the CT guided biopsy and realized one spot was gone and the other had decreased in size 50% on its own and decided it was clear infection and not worth the biopsy. 

What a ride the last 10 days were, but a relief in the end her lungs are clear of sarcoma. 

HELL YEAH!

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Learning to handle this insulin combo started out complicated, but now it's just click click click like running function checks on a pistol. Sitting here just grooving on 150 post-huge-breakfast blood sugar. Hell, if it drops more, I could finish that Snickers Bar in the fridge.

Much different from yesterday. My legs haven't been quite as Conan-esque as usual so I decided to lean into Old Man Shit and go walk around a big mall for an hour.

All good except I saw some Mexican Hot Chocolate, and BAM I was on it like white on rice and had half of it down before I realized I wasn't supposed to touch that much sugar. Spent an extra hour walking more, constantly mixed up about which entrance I'd come in through. Kinda like one of those nightmares with endless rooms.

Finally emerged like an addled Morlock into the gray drizzle, and realized I was the entire length of the mall from my car. Staggered through a jumbled landscape never meant for human locomotion with the mindless faith of a leafcutter ant, after 4 false parking lots I heard the car beep. Collapsed inside and was ready to sleep, but lo and behold, eyes focused, brain cleared, and drove home in car-man cyborg mode not testing the speed limit.

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For the Texas-Clemson game, instead of beer I took whatever insulin dose the numbers called for, then grabbed 1/3 of a shrinkflated Snickers Bar (est 17g) to enjoy it over 4 hours nibbling while listening to the game on a clock radio because our entertainment system is stalled out like a Tiger tank in a tar pit.

All was good, no "popped eyeball" high blood sugar symptom. Then I remember I forgot to take my Prednisone, the whole thing that once I take it all maybe my kidney heals and I get off this insulin. Alright already.

Get back upstairs, and my feral Chihuahua is acting like a failed silent film star in an opium den. She got into my last smidge of Snickers Bar. I snatch the remnants of the candy intact out of her gullet. There wasn't much left for her to eat, like a finger-tip joint size nub. I am guessing maybe a gram or two was chocolate, and it's crappo waxy American chocolate so actually less than that.

I'm like "What the hell's the matter with you, dog? You're not supposed to eat chocolate."

"You ain't shposed eat chocolate either motherfucker," she astutely ripostes

Tried contacting various money-extraction machines, I mean, vets. Then I'm like "she eats full candy bars worth of cat shit logs and is still here, harden the fuck up Australia."

Now she watches me, and I watch her.

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